Monday, February 1, 2016

Progress

Happy February! It's my birthday month (because you celebrate for a whole month, right)? February 11th is the exact date and...oh... I found a gray hair this morning! Eeekkk! I don't have gray hair so it's kinda a big deal right? Actually, no, I don't care. But fitting that it's in time for my 37th birthday.

Good news on all fronts!  When I went to my shoulder doctor appointment on Jan 4th, I was determined to weigh less for today's doctor's appointment. AND... I weighed in 10 lbs less! Go me! Yes, I'm doing Weight Watchers (again). And yes, it works for me.  (Side note, I'm down officially 8.6 lbs as of last week there but do expect a few more pounds down this week).

My doctor said my shoulder is doing very well. Since I was just shy of 3 months post-surgery (about 1.5 weeks shy), he was still hesitant of letting me do a couple things. Firstly, I still am not allowed to do external rotation since he wants me to be 3 months out of surgery. Since I'm close, he is allowing me to do a slight stretch on that right now.

External Rotation                 
I did ask when he thinks it will be ok to start trying to swim and he said to give it another month. (YAY!!)  He also said to refrain from weights but then did say I could do light weights for bicep curls or bench presses. Although I'm not trying to push anything as I do what things to heal up properly and not get re-injured.

He said something about close to having full range of motion, so I asked when he thought I would have full range back (I figured 6 months). He says generally 4-6 months but since I'm doing so well, he's figuring closer to the 4 month range! Woohoo!! What!? What!? Seriously...my dream. This may sound weird but if you've dealt with all my shoulder issues since July 2012, you would understand!  To one day be as close to "normal" as I can be... it's... I just can't imagine.

ANYWAY... that's all the news from here. As I stated, I'm doing well on the weight watchers/weight loss front. My birthday is in just over a week and I already know I will be having some splurges and I'm ok with that. I will just make the other days "good eating" days.  I may lose slowly sometimes but I think that it's the same ideas as with running...

It's a marathon, not a sprint!

Disclaimer: If you talk to me for the next several months, you will probably only hear about:
       
        1. My shoulder
        2. My wedding
        3. Weight Watchers

You've been warned! :)

Wednesday, January 13, 2016

Getting Back

Hey guys! Just a quick check-in so let you know how things are going so far. 

I appreciate all the motivating comments from the past couple posts. Things are going a bit better for me. You just have to make yourself be better sometimes. And it helps me get out of my funk. 

As far as my shoulder goes, I'm still working on my exercises to gain range of motion. Sometimes I can relax and feel as though my range is getting better but sometimes my shoulder is tighter and I feel like it's not improving. The doctor said I was doing great so I'll just go with that. It's been 2 months but I expect it to take at least 6 months.  Here's a bad picture of me doing my exercises. Sorry, it's all I got...
Trying to get the arm over my head.
It's not easy and sometimes I have a hard time relaxing my shoulder.
But I've been working out more, maybe not running more (1-2x a week) but at least getting more movement in.

Stretching at end of spin class
 
Meeting my run group on Thursday Night

My shoulder still gets sore while working out depending on the day and exercise but I figure it's going to be sore until it gets used to it and gets healed more. So I rest it when I need to but continue to get my workouts in.

Other than that...well, it's the Midwest and winter in Chicago. So I'm just cold. So very cold all the time. Work, home, outside, you name it. I walk about 15-20 minutes to work form the train every day. And it's just not fun. Such is life! Is it summer yet?


I weigh in at weight watchers tomorrow for my first official week. I've been doing really well and my pants already fit better. More on my progress with this later. Have a great week all!

Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Back to Square One

Thank you all for your comments on my last post regarding lacking motivation. I'm happy to report I'm forcing myself getting back my motivation! I've walked on the treadmill, run outside in the cold, and went to the gym. I'm trying to find my groove but it's there. And I'll find it.

I'm going to be honest here. What's the point of having a blog if you aren't honest, right? I joined Weight Watchers (WW)... again.

Now, I know you are supposed to be happy with your body the way it is now. I get it. I really do. But I've gained weight. A lot of weight. And it's getting in the way of the things I want to do, the way I want to be. I need to do something about it.

For a few of my long time blog friends, you know I actually started this blog while on WW and my initial posts were about my daily food (don't worry, I'm not going to do that to you).  I lost a total of 91 pounds and made lifetime. Lifetime is when you get to your goal weight and maintain it and you can go to WW for free. That was in 2010.   My "goal" weight wasn't too strict or low of a weight. It was at the top end of my BMI weight on the chart. So it's completely doable. Of course that was before running full marathons! We all know about that weight gain, right??

The "before" pic in 2007 (although I was down 25 lbs here)
Goal weight made in July 2010
(I suppose I should do a new "before" picture for this current attempt)

But if I'm being honest with you, I feel like a failure. I'm not back to my original heaviest weight, not even close really. But I've gained a good 40+ pounds back. Yes, 40+ pounds. 5 pounds turns into 10 pounds turns into 15 pounds. Well, you know the drill.  And frankly, it's depressing.  It's depressing to think I failed at this.

So, here I am again. Back to square one. Square one with food habits. Square one with running.

But it's ok. It takes time to change habits. It takes courage to recognize you need to do something and make a change. So instead of thinking I'm a failure, I'm going to say that I have the courage to make a change.