I'm going to be honest here. What's the point of having a blog if you aren't honest, right? I joined Weight Watchers (WW)... again.
Now, I know you are supposed to be happy with your body the way it is now. I get it. I really do. But I've gained weight. A lot of weight. And it's getting in the way of the things I want to do, the way I want to be. I need to do something about it.
For a few of my long time blog friends, you know I actually started this blog while on WW and my initial posts were about my daily food (don't worry, I'm not going to do that to you). I lost a total of 91 pounds and made lifetime. Lifetime is when you get to your goal weight and maintain it and you can go to WW for free. That was in 2010. My "goal" weight wasn't too strict or low of a weight. It was at the top end of my BMI weight on the chart. So it's completely doable. Of course that was before running full marathons! We all know about that weight gain, right??
|The "before" pic in 2007 (although I was down 25 lbs here)|
|Goal weight made in July 2010|
But if I'm being honest with you, I feel like a failure. I'm not back to my original heaviest weight, not even close really. But I've gained a good 40+ pounds back. Yes, 40+ pounds. 5 pounds turns into 10 pounds turns into 15 pounds. Well, you know the drill. And frankly, it's depressing. It's depressing to think I failed at this.
So, here I am again. Back to square one. Square one with food habits. Square one with running.
But it's ok. It takes time to change habits. It takes courage to recognize you need to do something and make a change. So instead of thinking I'm a failure, I'm going to say that I have the courage to make a change.