So sorry, I'm going off topic for a minute.
Matt and I have broken up or taken a break or something. I think it's for good though.
I think the long distance thing has taken it's toll and I asked for honesty, he doesn't really look forward to our visits as much anymore (ouch!). I asked and I wanted to know. So that's that. I'm not going to cry (if I can help it). I told him he knows how I feel but I can't change his feelings on it. I'm not going to beg. I'm going to move forward.
I guess it's time to refocus on myself again. No distractions.
Thanks for listening.