Friday, September 17, 2010

Hiding

I've been in hiding. Hiding from you guys.

The other day I posted a great post of my journey of getting to goal and what that means to me, but here I am ALL WEEK, not tracking, eating an entire loaf of bread this week, lots of cheese...just all nonsense!

And here I am, doing the opposite of what I should be doing. And I've been doing it ALL MONTH this way! There was 1 good week squeezed in and I felt great that week! I felt so empowered and in control, but the rest of the month has been crap. Pure crap!

What makes me even more infuriated is that it's not even good food that I'm eating. I'm not eating a cheeseburger and fries for a meal because I really want it and will enjoy eating it. I'm eating stupid stuff that doesn't satisfy me and therefore, I keep eating it.

My house is a mess, work is a mess. I guess I'm in one of those moods.

I almost don't want to weigh in tomorrow. I would still go to the meeting but I just don't want to see the number. I know, I should weigh in and stay accountable. And I'm sure I'll still be in my goal range. I'll think about it today.

But I did run twice this week. I also went for a walk with my cousins yesterday. I did some weights at home once. Those are my positives for the week. And I signed up for 2 upcoming 5k runs with my cousin's husband Nick. I'm doing them for/with him so I'll be running at his pace with is slower than mine. That's ok, the distance is the same and I'm happy to help encourage him along.

I even scheduled a short run with Nick tomorrow afternoon to help him get back into the running. We may only go about 2.5 miles. We will see how it goes tomorrow.

Other than that, my weekend plans are to clean my mess of a house and to shop for a fall jacket.

What are your weekend plans?

6 comments:

  1. Don't worry, you'll get back on track. We all have our off days, weeks, or months. It is just how it goes sometimes

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  2. It's okay...At least you acknowledge and know that you can do better. That's a good thing. We all have our off days. Keep up the great work and enjoy your run!

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  3. Its great that you're still working out and at least acknowledge what you're eating. I would bet that before you started your healthy journey you couldn't have cared less about the quality of food you were eating. That is the way I was at least.

    Have fun on your run!

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  4. I so know how you feel. Been struggling for a while. This past week has been my first honest good week in a while. I say honest because other weeks I might have said were good but I knew they really weren't.

    It will all come together. You know what I'm gonna say though. Go to the meeting!

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  5. We all do it! that's why i am joining an eat clean challenge, I just haven't been focused and I need to get that back. here's a link if you want to check it out:
    http://healthierinsideandout.blogspot.com/2010/09/clean-eating-challenge.html

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